Contents of My Heart

If you ever see this

2012-01-08T18:19:00.002+08:00

I'm just unlucky.

I see...

2011-10-01T10:03:00.002+08:00

According to you, i'm fucked up, i'm seriously beyond fucked up, you hope i'm proud of who i am, cause i'm a backstabbing, lying, ungrateful piece of scumbag.

Well, you're a manipulative bastard. That's all I have to say.

Hurry! (failed)

2011-09-28T02:50:00.002+08:00

Was attempting to write something and I realise that I suck at story writing. hahahaha

Living A Lie

2011-09-25T03:39:00.003+08:00

It's all so clear to me now. The key for me to find happiness, I know it now. All these while, I wasn't living my own life. I realize now that, the things that I've been doing for the past few years, its not the things that I want to do. I wasn't daring enough to live my life as myself and so I tried to be someone else. Someone I know that had the things that I want in life. But I was wrong, you learn from others, not make yourself exactly like others. It's like forcing yourself to be someone you're not. I don't want to limit myself anymore, I don't wanna live on safety guidelines. I wanna risk my life, not in a dangerous way, i wanna my life by taking chances. This is my resolution.

Perhaps, these few months, I can make use of it to discover who am I. The real me.

Sacred Temple

2011-09-21T23:17:00.004+08:00

The mind is our sacred temple. Its the part of our entity that we need to protect the most. Keep negative thoughts out and nourish the positive ones. Something I nicked off from "The monk who sold his Ferrari"

Untitled

2011-09-21T22:44:00.003+08:00

I have only few memories of my father, few good ones, what happened while I was growing up? How did I grew up hating my father? Was it my fault to begin with? Was I too cruel to my dad?

Seed of Destruction

2011-09-21T00:22:00.003+08:00

Doubt is the seed of destruction. When you doubt yourself or someone then it is over, whatever you do you're not gonna do it right, whatever you wanna achieve you're not gonna achieve it. If you don't believe and trust in yourself, you wont get what you want.

My Weakness

2011-09-10T22:41:00.002+08:00

My weakness is that I don't know how to handle a situation on my own, I can solve the toughest maths question, I can tell you something really deep in science but I just don't know how to solve the questions of life.

What I've understand now that, there's no right or wrong in life. The only right decision in life is the one that you made on your own. Whatever decisions that you do, there will be people who sees it as right and also people who sees it as wrong. But what's most important is you, as long as you have no regrets or doubts making that decision then the rest isn't important. Well, there'll still be consequences to worry but I think I've made my point here.

Life is a huge chapter that can't be explained fully with just one paragraph and it is different for everyone.

Fuckin' Perfect

2011-09-08T00:01:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I just wish I wasn't such a f'kin perfectionist and blame it on myself when I couldn't do it perfectly.

I am happy =)

2011-09-04T22:53:00.002+08:00

I am happy, as long as I see my friends are happy, as long as the girls that I know are happy, I don't have to be in a relationship with them to be happy, just being the guy that ease their heart that is enough for me. I don't see myself as a hero or something, its just something that I enjoy and something that makes me feel good about my life.

Everyday, every night I'm waiting for you to talk to me, or I would take the approach to talk to you.

Good Deed

2011-09-02T02:25:00.002+08:00

For girls, its like a battlefield. All they need is a true friend, but they are at war, its hard to know whether a person is an enemy or an ally.
For guys, its like temptation. They have to fight and endure it, in order to be a good man.

What's happening?

2011-09-01T02:25:00.003+08:00

Damn, I'm losing my focus, I didn't build all these just to let it fall apart. I really need to rethink what do I really want. See, I don't even know what to write anymore.
I only know I'm being distracted by the thoughts of her. God, I only seen her once in my life, and only chat with her on facebook. So what if there's so many coincidence in your life with hers. Right now there's none. WAKE THE HELL UP.

The Last Thing I Need

2011-08-30T01:01:00.001+08:00

Alright, I'll take it this way, now we're squared for as long as I keep my words. You will not be a chapter in my life no more. Don't make it any harder for both of us already

if that's what it takes then i'll erase you off completely

I think of you

2011-08-29T13:19:00.003+08:00

I asked "How do you know if you like someone?". Someone told me "When you think of that person all the time, then you like him/her". If that's true then I know now.

Today

2011-08-27T23:16:00.002+08:00

Yeah, great workout today. I trained my chest and triceps and it felt great =)

Tomorrow is leg day, gonna train myself till I puke !

Home Again

2011-08-27T00:11:00.002+08:00

Finally, after one month plus I am finally back home. It still feels the same, just that this time it's without the frustration that I felt the last time that I was home. I thought that I haven't been to the gym for a month I would have gained weight but I was wrong I actually lost weight. Haha imma hit the gym tomorrow. Haven't train for so long, gonna be hard time tomorrow.

Feelings

2011-08-26T13:30:00.001+08:00

The truth is I was persuaded by someone to write my blog again. The first time I met her, I'm attracted by her. She's pretty and like some thing pure, white, angelic. She's already taken, but that's not the point here, I'm just thankful that she raised me up.

Here I am again

2011-08-25T01:19:00.000+08:00

I find myself unable to open up to anyone, including my friends. There are things that I've not shared with my friend even with the closest one. I don't want to keep everything inside of me but I just can't. I'm sorry, I no longer complain about my life but right now I am walking a lonely path. It is sad but it is what I've known most in my life. Maybe it will change, maybe it won't, I don't know. I'm just doing what I can.